It’s been exactly one week since I filled out my application to run the Chicago marathon for St. Jude Children’s Hospital. Shall we reassess the progress that has been made? Honestly, no progress has been made. I wish I could say I got a solid training plan drawn up, but I didn’t. The first wave of excitement that came from confirming my commitment to the race faded pretty quickly. I got off work Thursday morning and fell right back into the day to day race of being a mother, one who was severely behind on laundry.
Motivation waxes and wanes. Consistency is what produces results. Isn’t that what they say? (Who is “they” exactly?) How am I supposed to become consistent if I am not motivated? I trick myself into becoming motivated. I did watch Legally Blonde this week. I did it just to see that one scene where she really starts to apply herself at Harvard Law. If you are a millennial woman, you recognize the exact scene. I was still hitting the snooze button and letting the day fall into place with no wish to “start”. No amount of watching inspiring movies was going to generate enough motivation to separate me from my bed. Early mornings are just plain hard. My bed is just not a place I want to leave in the morning. My body is smashed between two sweet baby boys. Their fingers are tangled in my hair. It’s their guaranteed move to make sure I stay put. Their warmth radiates off their small bodies. The soft sounds of their breathing lull me back to sleep after I hit the snooze. Pure bliss.
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I want to start jumping into marathon training right away. I want to download a marathon plan and have a guiding light lead the way. This is my second marathon, and, while my first one went awesome because my only goal was to finish, my training was less than perfect. My longest training run was 15 miles. I went into that race not knowing if I could even run 26.2 miles. My finish time of 5:30:13 was a blessing. This time around I want to be stronger, more prepared for the miles.We are still 49 weeks away. Most marathon plans are 16 weeks or 22 weeks long. I could train for one twice if I wanted to. Perfect right?
I am struggling to get anything in and there’s no sense of routine or focus point. It’s just whatever I can get in with whatever time I have free. Which isn’t a lot especially if I am in the middle of a work week. I will try and get thirty minutes of something, whether it is yoga or cycling. I haven’t found a consistent routine for my training. It just feels like I’m floundering with the physical part of marathon training. I don’t have a program to guide my daily activities. It’s also really early to be starting one of those programs. Besides I am not ready to even start a program like that because I haven’t been running. I sound like a broken record I know. Starting is overwhelming though.
I work night shift at the hospital as a nurse practitioner. My work weeks start Thursday night and end the next Thursday morning. Seven nights in a row, twelve hour shifts, no consistent sleep. During my “on” week I have to choose between getting more sleep or working out. I can’t just fall out of training every other week. When I trained for my first marathon I would run when I got off or run before going in. We have added a new baby to the mix since that last race. I need to get home to him as soon as I get off. I am still his main source of nutrition. I need to work out because I need to get stronger. I need to sleep so my body can recover. I am stuck in this endless cycle. Should I get some sleep? Or should I get in a quick workout? It can be maddening. If you have made it this far in reading my blog I bet I can read your mind. “Why on earth would she decide to run a marathon when she clearly has too much on her plate already?”
Short answer, because I want this that bad. There is never going to be a good time in my life to do this. There will always be something in my life that is taking up too much of my time. My kids will be this age or that age. They will still need me just as much as they need me right now. There is always going to be work. Maybe not the same schedule, but I am not going to quit. (Unfortunately, there is no chance of me becoming an endorsed marathoner.) My husband and I moved into our newly built house that we (he) built on our own. It’s not finished. We live in what I like to call “construction chic.” This house is a lifelong project that will fill my weekends up for the rest of my life. When is a good time to start training for a marathon? I want to do this so badly. There is no time like the present moment. I will have to make it work.
Now, I have finished thoroughly complaining about the situation. Only I can control it, so what am I going to do about it?
Create a Routine
Routines and consistency produce results. We know this. I know this. It may take time, but eventually, just like before, running will become easier to me. Most days I hope my love for physical activity will be enough to get me moving. I know some days I won’t feel motivated. I won’t feel inspired everyday to leap from my bed and hit the pavement before the sun rises. On those days my routine will hopefully save me. I will select my workouts at the beginning of the week and have them all written down. I am a girly who loves a list. Even more I love crossing things off that list.

Develop a Training Plan
Right now I don’t need a training plan for a marathon. It’s too early and I am no where near ready for that. I need to just be running in general. I don’t need to worry about how many miles I am getting in weekly. Don’t need to stress about how many miles my long runs are. I need to be strictly focused on just running. My goals should be time-focused. Running for thirty or forty-five minutes at least three times a week. I need to incorporate cross training days as well. I basically just need to move and do work outs that I enjoy. I love yoga, cycling, and strength workouts. Doing any one of those a day will be a step in the right direction.
Let Things Go
I cannot do it all. Despite my amazing efforts trying to be everything to everyone in my life. It’s just impossible. Some things are going to have to take a backseat and that’s OK. Laundry will have to pile up. Household chores will have to be outsourced to my two teenagers. (I am sure they are going to love that.) I will miss coffee dates with friends. I won’t make it to every event that I am invited to. I am not a super social person so those last two things won’t really be a problem. 🙂
Set Small Achievable Goals
Reaching a goal feels so rewarding. When I reach my goals I feel successful and it drives me to continue to work for the next goal. If I set unrealistic goals like running a 3:30 marathon, I will feel defeated. I will give up quickly when I realize that goal is unachievable. (At this MOMENT!) If I set smaller more realistic goals I will keep returning to feed that desire I have to achieve. Right now my goal is just to start running more. It’s a simple goal. I haven’t run for 9+ months. Running one to two times a week is goal completed. Another of my goals is to run a race. I signed up for a 5k last month with no goal time in my mind. I wanted to just run a race. It felt fantastic.
Don’t Be So Hard on Myself
I started writing this post a week ago. I forgot my charger for my laptop at work and didn’t write during my entire week off from work. It’s been almost a month since I signed up for the marathon and my routine is still in shambles. I have only ran once since I ran that 5k in October. What can I say? I am a mom! My life stays busy. I have constant interruptions that cause me to rearrange my plans. This is why I am blogging this journey. I want to show anyone who has a life, a career, or a family that even though it is hard to train for a marathon, it’s doable. I will have setbacks, but I am going to keep showing up week to week. Not every training week will be perfect, and that’s okay. There will be some weeks that will be amazing, and that will be great. I just need to keep running. It will all be worth it in the end.